Prolific Idealist but Burdened Realist. 'Freedom is the right of all sentinet beings' O Prime.
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This is my very first post! Wow… I can’t believe it…. I am in my mid- thirties and I have no idea what I am doing… both in my life ..or on ‘my blog’… lol. I like the picture so I am keeping it. Thanks for still reading this far….. on wards and upwards…… First blog post
What the actual F#=k……… That is all I can say. I returned home from my vacay to the States, to absolute fear and uncertainty. And that is just from me. Corona Virus has well and truly arrived in Ireland. It is something out of a war film. The more I watch the news bulletins, the twitter accounts, trying to glean as much information as I can from all the social sites as possible, I realise this is not good…. and especially not for me. This is one of my fears… to be Typhoid Mary. I mean, this is something that we cant face and it spreads so easy that I want to hide myself in a room until this is all over. Not that I am afraid, no, I am paranoid about spreading the disease. I don’t even know if I have it, but I am still paranoid. I am not worried about my own health, even though I probably should be. But no, I am worried about everyone else. And once my brain starts doing the numbers, and how it can travel and spread so quick I am just like Oh my God….. So what to do, every cough, sneeze, sore throat I have I am convinced I have it. I self isolate for two weeks, and even then I think I may still have it. I am being ridiculous of course, and paranoid but my anxiety in relation to spreading it is at an all time high. I envy those who are able to work from home, yes I know it is not ideal all the time, but at least they have more control on who they are speaking to and who they are coming into contact with.
This pandemic has the potential to change life as we know it, already when I am walking I stand more that 2 feet away from people and almost make an example of moving further away. I have often turned my back on people if I think they are too close. Is this the new normal between humans. Culturally will this be the end of say. the Spanish or Italian kissing on the cheek greetings. Are these cultural greetings never to be practiced again? The longer this goes on, will this be what is left? Will we ever return to our tactile selves. Will the virus ever go? Will a second wave finally catch all those that a)didn’t get it originally or b)kill off those who survived it. I go from feeling, Yes we can do this, to I am a disaster. I feel like I haven’t helped serve my country and do my bit in this situation or even helped out on a local level. I am lucky to still have my job, so I donate to charities each week. This is as much for them, as it is for me to feel better about my approach to all this. I am trying to keep calm, but with the uncertainty of when this will all end and how long into the future before we return to some level of normality is crippling. All I want at this stage is to be able to go to a Coffee shop, order a coffee and cake and sit and watch all the people go by. Even just to have that again.
My words today are: We are doing all we can, and so are you. Keep the faith and this too shall pass. x
Good evening folks. It is 16.50 on a dark, chilly December evening on the island of Ireland. My island. I am again, returning to my source of income after 9 glorious days travelling and chilling. Sigh….. the fear has returned. #doesanyoneelsefeellikethisafterbeingoffwork I am sitting listening to cheesy 80s hits and trying to breath and make peace with the fact I have to be up out of my warm, soft, cosy bed/leaba at 7bells. It is cruel. Oddly I feel ok. I think it is because I am trying to keep my mind busy. I am on the hunt for some fab new Tshirts. I am obsessed with Tshirts, and someday I will make my millions from selling Tshirts. Watch this space…………….. Currently, ‘I want to know what love is‘, by Foreigner is playing… Great Tune…BUT has anyone seen ‘Rock of Ages’, if so you will know what I am alluding to. Stacee Jaxx and Constance Stack. 😉 Love it!!!! #rockofages Next up is Barbra Streisand, and ‘Woman in Love‘…… great tune for a sing along!!!
Anyways, yes back to my empire and world domination. The Tshirt business. Cant beat a simple white T, with a message. I’m working on it. Peace x #anyideasorsuggesstionsgreatlyreceived #help #tshirtsfortheworld #t4dw
Hi…. well good morning. So after a non-existent few hours of ‘sleep’ (watch this space), I am up, showered, dressed and ready for work. This is my first day back at work in 2 weeks. The knot in my stomach ever growing as my mind screams at me.. your inbox is going to be overflowing….. I have a sense of dread. 2 weeks of unanswered emails…. I don’t even want to know, I don’t want to face it. But obviously some part of me does, hence why I am up and ready to go out the door with time to spare, which is unheard of in my life. Always fashionably late… or just late is me……. Does anyone else suffer this Work Return Dread?? If so, how do you deal with it? Is it my job or just the break away? #ReturntoWorkBlues #doievenlikemyjob #whycantisleep #waitingforpayday
I am open to any discussion on the above, and I would be interested in hearing about similar experiences and outcomes. Wish me luck x
Hi…It has been over 2 years since my last post, and one would think I would be bursting with nuggets, tales, anecdotes……but no……well yes…. Does anyone else have so much going on inside and around their head…. like great points (you believe), great notions on saving the world, witty comments(that I subsequently forget) etc etc (that is only the start of what is going on in my head believe me) and then when it comes to getting the words on the page it is like………………………………………………… As I said before in a previous post, (yes over 2 years ago).. I am not a blogger, I still don’t fully understand how this forum works. But for anyone who has read my previous posts… (and I believe there were like 2/3- and one is picture I took up a mountain in Alaska) I did manage to get the thesis in on time for the Masters I was completing, and funnily I did manage to pass. Not with an outstanding achievement award, but i did pass it. That was 2 years ago, and I could not tell you one thing about Ethics or Philosophy now….. Great use of my time and money…but…. it is done. As usual, I am doing things the hard way. It is now 00.07 on a Sunday night and I have work at 8am…. and here I am writing a ‘blog’.(Do these musings of a crazy elephant actually constitute as a blog?) I will try and commit to this from this day forth and see where it takes… or if not..after another 2 posts I will see you all in about 2 years. As always, any comments or advice is all greatly appreciated. x
I am in the process of writing an essay on Trust and Trustworthiness within large professional organisations. I have put myself under serious time constraints with my consistent procrastination….. and today I even outdid my previous achievements… I set up a blog….. I do not have any idea about blogs. I do not follow other blogs… but this was how I spent my day for study…….. I am a complete fool and I only have myself to blame. Any suggestions on how to improve this blog or the like let me know….. I feel like Joey from Friends when I say the trust, and the trusting and the trustworthiness… ie. ‘the giving and the receiving’…. Honestly I feel like my point is not strong enough and I am afraid of my supervisors reports. Any else out there in this position??? #Friends #procrastination #fml
Some Musings of a Crazy Elephant 